WOOTS ! :D (Wednesday, May 12, 2010 / 11:13 PM)
Rawrs ! Am back to blog again .
Kinda bored and stuck at home .
Ain't having a good mood lately .
Damn tired and restless .
But ! am counting down for my sis 21st chalet !
Alright !
Anyway , today , as per normal .
Don't really wanted to touch my dad .
I can't control that feeling but to don't scream at him .
Bruises here and there cause he causes it .
Just an apology also seems hard to hear .
I don't really cares what is he thinking or whatsoever .
His my dad , but ain't understanding .
Like a emperor at home but does nothing about getting himself healthy .
Always depend on others and no gratitude given .
Seriously , am not close to him and from young till now ,
we always have communication breakdown .
Am doing it just for the sake for my sis and my mum .
I'm not what they think a good daughter .
I'm not doing this to redeem my sin .
Am not going closer to him and not in the future .
Cause the past haven change any between me and my dad .
No matter what i do , there this thing called
trust which does not exist in us .
I have done what a daughter should do .
Time for me to focus on something more useful then finding that trust back .
To me , its not important anymore .
He had already broken that kinship long ago when i was born .
Will not care much after my maid had returned .
It shall end soon ..
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