I don't need your approval for my
Existence
suddenly i'm famous
and people knew my name

PhotobucketHey hey. My name is Pearlyn. I'm a hyper active creature whom you don't wanna mess with me either :D
I'm quite Sociable and loves making new friends :3
Oh well, I BITES randomly :D
Hoho! Can't wait to turn 21!
Single yet not available.

Make Wishes Out of Airplanes.
★Red Contact Lens
★Wrist , Ankle , Neck , Finger Tattoos
★Canon Cam
★Have a great 21st birthday
★Stable Career
★Learn Hairstyling
★Be a Hairstylist
★Independent and Live alone
★More Clothes

☺FACEBOOK ☺TAGGED ☺TWITTER

My Mood:
{ }


you are someone
special
my heart has been captured
by your funny little smile
i don't know for sure
where this is going

→Adriel
→→AhJon
→→→Aldrich
→Brian
→→Candy
→→→Cassandra
→Christine
→→Darren
→→→Donovan
→Hwee Tiang
→→Hwei Khim
→→→Genesis
→Gerald
→→Givan
→→→Guo En
→Jasmin
→→Jerad
→→→Jia Ji
→Jia Wei
→→Jin Yee
→→→Joanna
→Junze
→→Kuan
→→→Lishan
→Maxine
→→Miao Qi
→→→MilaMohd
→Nicholas Tay
→→Nicholas Ng
→→→Phoebe
→Priscilia
→→Ricky
→→→如玉
→Selin
→→Shurn Heng
→→→Tze Charn
→William
→→Yan Mei
→→→→Yi Cheng
→Yi Ling
→→Yi Linqq
→→→HCSK
→SHE-SCRAPPED
→→P-Closet
→→→DIVA
don't promise me forever
just love me day by day

Template: Elle (blog)
Inspiration: balloon.s
Fonts: toomunch
Icons: defying affection
Lyrics: Funny Little World
Others: colour codes





What did the believe go ?? sighs .. (Sunday, March 15, 2009 / 11:38 PM)

Today is kinda moody ..
Cause of my maid who say those things ,
and my Dad's facial expression that make my heart go crashing down deep .

I only asked my dad if i could buy another contact lens and wanted to take my ang pao money which my dad keep it at his drawer .

Previously , i taken once from my dad's drawer , and its my elder sis help me took out the cash .
I didn't touch the drawer . This happen quite long already . Its about 2 or 3 months ago .

Today , i asked my dad . My maid questioned me , why i took the money previously i never tell him .
Then i say i asked my elder sis to take , then my maid angrily say : '' you think your sister is the owner of the drawer is it ?! " then i argued and said its my sister who opened it and took out the cash , cause she was taking her bank book out there .

Then my maid keep accused me say i steal money from my dad's drawer . She didn't even care a single shit i say la . I explained and swear to god that i didn't steal already !

My maid keep accusing me and i turned to my dad and swear .. My dad just give that cold stare he always given through out this year .. And the BEST , he give a suspicious looked !!

From his expression i already knew that for all this year , there's no thing called ''Trust" from him to me ..

My heart really came crashing deep down .. Very deep down to the bottom of my heart ..
Am i really looked like a thief and a liar to them ?! Am i that despicable ?! Do i really need to lie to get money ?! Do i looked like a crooked to them ?! Or maybe there is no me in their heart ?

Family to me is a word "distant" in my heart .
No matter what i do , they are not satisfied .
To them , ME is just a liar , cannot be trusted , not worth caring child .
I know every parents love their own child ..
But the feelings they giving me when the day i was born out is that , i'm not being cared or loved .
Through out this years , i only remembered the pain , miserable , cold stare , the sarcasm in their words , no trust , no believing , bad comments , vulgarities from my sister , slaps from my maid .

Its like i have to try survive in sarcasm each day .
hoping everyday ends fast , hope they leave me alone .

No use whining anyway ..
No one in the family will help me though ..
Just have to bare with it alone ..
Hope no more slapping and scolding ..
Really hoping each day ..