borin.. ZzZ (Monday, October 15, 2007 / 7:37 PM)
Walau eh.veri siian siia.haiz. O's is comin!! ARHHH..worried. siian.Major stress is comin ler..wahhhhh...lols.Gud luck 2 all takin O's dis year.
I lost e trust. *sad n isolated. (Sunday, October 14, 2007 / 1:09 PM)
i dunno wat 2 do in such circumstances.i'm alone, isolated, sad n depressed.i'm jus yearnin 2 get sum love frm dem.izzit hard? i'm jus too disgusted 2 dem.a child dat doesn't listen dem n refuses 2 obey instruction.i dunno why. but i'm sad of e wae dey treated mi unfairly.reali. i'm nrt alwaes e ger dat smiles n laugh my wae thru.i'm hurt in my hart. shattered lyk millions pieces of glasses.i sumtimes tink. wat is family 2 mi?a warm n happy happiness or a cold n hurtful memories?Wat's d prob wif dem? I do e tings dey wanted.yet in return was a cold eyes stare.i hate e feelin. i hate 2 b look dat wae.i'm alwaes enclosed in my own world.wif mi alone 2 fight eberytin on myself.wif no ones help n care.I nrt a bad ger dey assume i was.i dun join gangs or even smokes.i am jus feelin no warm in my hse.no secure. no feelins 2wards dem.e wae dey look at mi, e wae dey speak 2 mi.Its jus so cold. so harsh. so scary.i wun cry. i wil b hurt. But wat cn i do.i hav 2 strive 2 live on, on my own.i dun nid dem 2 sae sarcastic remarks on my behavior.i may cry n feel lyk dyin. but i wil prove 2 dem dat i'm nrt dat kind of daughter dat dey assume i was.its jus a matter of time. but life muz go on.i shall wipe awae e hurtful n vengeance tears. n look 4ward 2 future.i wil b independent n strong. i trust myself. believin myself.i dun wan 2 b a whimp animore. dis is e path dat i choose.Its a new mi agn. a new dae 2 pull thru.a new Pearl 2 polish on. hehees. :)
i hate ppl who cuts their hand. (Tuesday, October 9, 2007 / 9:01 PM)
haiz. why ppl lyk 2 cut their hand?
wen ask dem, dey wil sae '' i jus brk wif him/her, i cnt leave w/o him/her''. blah blah..
why do relationship olwaes happens dis kind of stupidility act?
i reali dun understand. why ppl cn b so engrossed in relation ship n yet neglect their frenz ard dem?
i wan pity e ppl who reali wan a life n look down on e ppl who jus tak their life fer granted n throw awae lyk dat.
its jus bcuz of e BGR tingy dat make eberyone 2 b lyk dat.
why muz b sad n wantin 2 die? i understand dat e relationship hav gone thru fer so long n both hav gone thru thick n thin thru out. but does it necessary fer ppl 2 tak their life fer granted?
ok. i grt an advice. 2 lovers out ther. i nid 2 seriously encourage u guys nrt 2 cut yr hand fer sumone. no matter how long or how much u gone thru.
Its nrt worth 2 cut yr hand n injured yrslef fer sumone eho dun respect u n tak u fer granted?
he'she may sae dey dun lyk u animore, but wat else cn u do? its e fact. its nrt yr fault.
it may b hartbrk fer all but cn u chng e fact dat he/she do nrt hav feelin fer u alreadi.
no matter how mani cuts u cut jus fer dat person. he may nrt appreciate wat u hav done.
but in e end, u may tis ting worst. he/she wil tink dat u are stupid enugh 2 cut yrself.
why nrt u 4get eberytin n calm yr mind. tink abt how much u done fer him/her.
izzit worth 2 do dat? ANS: NO! dun b stupid.
dis is my thought
=> i wil nrt even b sad if i was dump by my BF. why muz i sad fer dat? even if we gone thru thick & thins tgt fer long time, i wun regret or sad fer e brk up. at least u preserve e gud memories in yr hart. yr life stil hav 2 go on though. its nrt lyk e end of e world. dis is onli a part of yr life n tings 2 go thru unitl u reali find sumone u lyk n married in e end. trust mi. u dun reali nid 2 do all dis tings. u stil hav mani tings in life u cn do. so dun make a wrong choice. i noe its hard fer u 2 4get him/her dat quick. but wat u cn do its jus congratz him dat he wil b stay fereva wif his new life. dis is a wae 2 make yrself 2 feel beta. even if u cnt. tok 2 sumone who cn help u in resolvin dis matter. if u r stuck in dis kind of situation. cum tok 2 mi if u wish.
Its a 'beautiful' vase wif cracks.. (Monday, October 8, 2007 / 9:04 PM)
Hav u ever tot of wat will happen 2 u was abandoned by yr frenz?i mean its lyk u dun lyk e feelin of bein left out or alone.Aniwae, who wil lyk dat? dis feelins sux lyk hell.eberyone was lyk pretendin 2 noe dat u wil b jus alrite n nrt even askin u a single shit.u wil b lyk assumin dat sumone wil care abt u n cum over 2 tok 2 u but NO!none came 2 tok, or shuld i sae nobody cares wat u r doin.i was wanderin if ppl in grps are frenz dat wil b 4eva?It came 2 my thought dat its nrt e fact. Seriously!no matter how well u participate in e grp, it seems lyk it doesn't seems 2 b lyk dat.eberyone in dat grp seems so fake. lyk it shows dat eberone is wearin a mask 2 cover up e fact!or am i e onli one who notice dat? it seems so perfect but it is nrt.one month lata e frenship wil b lyk a vase; it seems so beautiful n shiny frm far. but who wil actually tak a step closer 2 see? frm far its shiny n beautiful. a closer look at it, dere r cracks all over it.wat fer u try 2 mend all e cracks, wat fer u cover up so nicely yet e cracks cn b seen?no matter how hard u try 2 save it its jus so worthless.why cnt frenz b frenz rather den havin a 'name' jus 2 emphasize dat ''we are a grp''?i reali dun understand n i dun wish 2 understand.As long as we r stil frenz, dun care whether we r a grp anrt, i reali believe dat we wil stil b e same as normal frenz.cuz we dun rank frenz as bez frenz, close frenz or besties. Cuz nth is bez den havin frenz ard w/o a rank.treat others equally n nrt b bias. its a choice 2 choose btw dat.wat wuld u choose?
Haiz.. (Sunday, October 7, 2007 / 12:47 PM)
wat has happen 2 e ppl out ther?haiz. eberytin seems 2 happen so fast yet i am stil stuck in my own world.is reality so real or dream is jus dreams?why is everybody nrt tinkin of wat dey gnna do?or izzit mi who is laggin behind.haiz. i losin my faith in mi.losin e strength 2 fight on.cnt hold it much longer. Am i dat weak?i tink i am sinkin 2 my dreams.no one cares, no one understand, no more fights, no more endin.yar. mayb i am jus too sick n tired of eberytin.4gettin myself, 4gettin e world.
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