Let me be. (Sunday, July 31, 2011 / 4:03 PM)
Sometime i just don't know what i am doing now.
Just let me be silence for a moment.
Labels: Silence.
Time to lay low. (Wednesday, June 22, 2011 / 2:41 AM)
Well, recently i am getting more and more lethargic.
Decided to do alot of things.
Main point is i wanna stop what am doing now.
It's stupid. Just gonna wash my hands off things.
Time to stop trying and understanding some stuff.
I am just not a nice person.
No more deep thoughts for me. Just gonna rest for now.
What matters most was my old cliques and my career.Gonna change my lifestyle for a better.
This few weeks i just felt myself getting weaker.
Maybe health isn't that well i guess.
Hoping to do a full body check up soon.
And one more important thing, I am very grateful to have a brother like
Renjie.
Even if we knew not long enough. But he understands me.
Talking to him, sharing stuff with him and hanging out with him and his cliques is very fun and interesting. Simply, i just feel ease.
He is a thoughtful brother and caring one too.
He said that he will accompany me to do a full body checkup if i have the money already. I'm so glad in a way.
Other then him, there are other brothers and sister who loves me and care for me.
And even friends. Just wanna thanks them so so much for being with me even if they are there or not. It has been a great time guys.
You guys have been part of my life like a family. I appreciate whatever you guys have done (: You guys are the most beautiful people i have ever met. Faces of you guys will always printed in my heart. Just simply love you guys for who you are and accepted the me for who i am. A big thanks to you all <:Well, will blog soon. Feeling abit tired now.
Hope to get my dream cam soon.
Ciaos for now.
Labels: Time to lay low.
Change of mind (Wednesday, June 1, 2011 / 8:59 PM)
I thought for quite some time since monday.
And as i thought. I couldn't hold grudges for long.
Plus, I don't really hate anyone.
I just need to give myself a chance.
Taking a gamble for now.
I decided some things that would change myself.
But its just a trial.
I'm still not sure how far could i get.
But I wanted to see it for myself.
I just hope i could get over my past.
Pray hard that my trial would hurt much.
Giving myself a chance for now.
Rather then me rewinding those smiles by myself.
I could see things more clearly now.
Just hoping.
Gonna meet K later.
Ciaos.
Wish myself luck.
Labels: Decision make.
Unable to accept that love that is going around. (Monday, May 30, 2011 / 1:33 PM)
Once again, i chose to revive my blog,
though i am just always saying that i wanted to blog again.
But now, other then this blog, I don't really wanted to say things out to anyone like how i was used to be. I just wanted to voice it out here.
If anyone bother to read it that is (:
Well, time really pass by fast. Lots of things happen.
Many unexpected things happens too.
I have never felt so shocked before.
Guess that, i didn't see that coming.
What is it like to fell in love, feel love or even, someone knew your presence.
It seems like i have always reckon others presence but neglect my own presence instead.
I won't mention names but i will just put it as 'K'. I bet he knew himself.
I doesn't deserve such good treatment from him though. Cause i knew myself, I just couldn't accept that love given. Im just not ready enough. I don't force or begged others to stay by my side. Quite pathetic as i could say. I just want a simple life.
I could see the effort he put, the changes he made. But no matter what, he is still young. I prefer maturity and speaks with confidence. It hurts to say. But i can't see myself with him.
But sometimes, im just felt so bitch! Sometimes i wish i could hug him or stuff. But that was just using. I often restrain myself from doing that. I can be cruel sometimes. But he doesn't care. Why bother to care and concern without any return?
It was as good as suicide. Maybe i still can't accept that the fact that his past love life do shocked me. I felt insecure and scared.
I doesn't want to accept anyone else. Im shut to myself in my heart. Strong on the outer, weak in the inner. No matter what is coming for me. I will just push every guy away. At least, i don't have to decide who and the path i took. Pressure i guess. Unable to accept the thing called
love.
I hope that I would walked out from my past as soon as possible.
Me, myself, is not sure when i will be able to walk out.
Just trying not to think, smiling as usual.
Time heals. Well, no exact time given when to stop. Will just have to keep walking.
Emo? Nahs, Not anymore.
Writing it out makes me feel less burden. Though it all sounds stupid.
But well, am myself. I don't need any others to approve the person i am.
Time for a break off the lappie.
Ciaos.
Labels: repeated mistakes
SICK OF THIS LIFE. (Thursday, January 13, 2011 / 7:04 PM)
TIME TO GET REAL AND HANDLE MY LIFE SERIOUSLY.
NO MORE CHILD'S PLAY OR WHATEVER SHYT.
TIME TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER AND NOT LOOKING BACK.
DETERMINED AND FINAL.
NO MORE CHANGES.
NO MORE DRAGGING PEOPLE IN TO MY LIFE.
SHOULDN'T HURT ANYONE ANYMORE.
NOT TO LET THEM WORRIED ANYMORE.
I SHOULD LEAD MY WAY.
AND I WILL.
Labels: Time to get real.
WOOHOO! I just love my ic! (Wednesday, December 29, 2010 / 1:35 AM)
WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! MY IC IS BACK~Well, am alittle crazy i guess. But i got to party once again!
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
Awesome or what >< Anyways, today quite a slackin' day for me.
Went to get my ic in the morning, return to my mum's salon around noon.
This few days is quiet. BUT, no worries! Am here to work and entertain my mummy! :D
Just hope that next year would be a great year for her and family (:
After work is always my leisure time!
Went to shishaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa @ bugis with
Kuan and
Joseph!
Im kinda like lazy to post the photos.
But a few will do the trick :D
Tml gonna go PH for party! Woohooo!
That's for now.
Ciaos!
Labels: Sometime a little caring do taste nice :3
Done! (Tuesday, December 28, 2010 / 12:36 AM)
Finally, finish the bleaching for Zenneth's hair.
Phew! A long day indeed.
Quite bastard though my bro.
Keep bomb me time but late come as usual.
Getting used to his pattern already. Haha.
Anyways, kinda like his hair though.
But tiring after the whole process.
I will get his new hair color photo to showcase.
Tml gonna be a long day working.
Gonna check my mails and reply the others.
Though the whole day was damn damn damn tiring,
I finally have a
GOOD piece of news to celebrate!
Hohohohohohoho~
MY WALLET WAS FOUND!WAAAAHOOOO! I don't have to spend 60bucks for my ic!
Geessss, am really lucky this year man.
What ever is lost this year, can be
found!!
Well, time to rest!
Gonna retrieve my wallet tml and work and
shishaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!Nights people!
Ciaos!
woohooooo~
Labels: Im sure to be lucky :3
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